Be still & know that I am God...Psalm 46:10

Monday, January 30, 2012

the grinch who stole coleridge.........

........woke up this morning a tab bit on the grumpy side.  no.  that's a lie.  i was ok for the the first few minutes.  that's about how long it took me to convince myself to get up.  but once my feet hit the ground it was all down hill from there.  luckily for samantha she was already awake when i got up.  it was a good morning for everybody involved to skip the routine fight to get up & get ready.  if she had pulled that on me today she might be walking around headless right now.  i went to her dresser to get her a pair of pants & realized she had worn all of them this weekend.  ughhhhhh.....so my first load of laundry starts @ 6:47am.  as i'm walking thru the kitchen the frying pan that i cooked supper in saturday night before work stares at me from the sink.  yeah i see you.  throw the load of laundry in.  thinking about the pan the thought hits me.  wonder if anybody emptied the dish washer from saturday????  you already know the answer.  so i fix the kids breakfast....yell at them to come get it.  i'm not serving ANYBODY today.  proceed to empty the dish washer making sure to bang, clank, smash as loud as possible.  nobody was sleeping in this morning.  childish???? yup.  that's me..little suzy-q-who who acts no more than two.  on to the frying pan and the sink full of dishes.  book bags...snacks....ponytails...shoes....coats.....off to school.  i had planned on exercising this morning after i dropped them off.  what did i do instead?  crawled back in bed.  set the alarm for 9.   hit the snooze three times.  finally dragged my butt out of the bed & got in the shower because today's "GROCERY SHOPPING DAY"  must never mess w/grocery shopping day.  i'm starting to feel a little better after my shower.  showers & mt dew are good for that.  then....as i'm blow drying my hair i get a text from my spoiled rotten adorable son christian.  he tells me he's droppin out of school for the semester and running off to australia.  haha.  hilarious huh.  my reply?  ummm...yea right.  turns out he just wanted to see what i'd say.  he said there's gotta be more to life than"this".  i reminded the spoiled brat cutie pie how fortunate he was and how many people would love to go to college.   i also reminded him that if he'd like to run off to australia that would be fine.  his student loans will be waiting for him when he got back.  end of conversation.   when did the world decide that every moment of life had to induce some kind of adrenaline rush.  kids are so disillusioned today.  yup...sometimes this is all there is.   book bags...snacks....laundry...cleaning....work....grocery shopping!!! somebody's got to do it.  and the maid and the butler are off today.  arghhhhhhh.  as i'm muttering under my breath i climb into the van.  i look out the back window as i'm pulling out and there's the drawling that ryan made me last night.  he told me he had made me something.  couldn't see it last night when we went to church and honestly i didn't pay attention this morning when i took them to school.   yes, the fact that he could draw something on my van means that it is totally nasty but that's ok.  matter of fact i'm hoping it doesn't rain anytime soon.  soooooo.....there it was....i love you mom and dad with a beautiful little smiley face.  it was just what i needed and my grinchy old heart......that felt ten times too small.....began to grow & grow.  yesssssss.....some times this is all there is.  what a rush....